down time day one

okay.... so i was thinking these past days that maybe i should start a blog.. i will use it as a sort of today's journal only one i will share with you today. so here is day one. I've always knew i could write, and always have a million and one things running threw my head at one time. i work and all i do all day is help ppl to relax and let them enjoy down time, and wonder what could i do for some down time so this is it. im 24 years old and just started my career. i hate to wake up and earlier then i have to and once awake cannot stop thinking of this and that and ahhhh... its like im driving myself crazy.. so let me ask you have u ever just woke up and cannot for the rest of the day have 10min. of silence in ur own head. 10min. of just deep breaths and nothingness. some ppl fix it with a bottle of wine or some beer. i on the other hand not much of a drinker. well except the one nite i set aside to really go out and let loose........ okay so as of yesterday i woke up pissed off at the world some might say in the wrong side of the bed. i don't know why this was, but i was angry. i was cold that morning and my bf put another blanket over me and snuggled up to me for a min. then with a kiss on my forhead got up and continued his day, i then fell back asleep only to wake up in that awful mood. why? then i continued on to the first job of the day thinking of the weirdest stupidest crap that got me angry, stuff that means nothing at all to me. stuff that shouldn't and on a normal other day wouldn't even matter but made me mad yesterday! like..... what did my EX BOYFRIENDS new girlfriend have that i didn't? what makes it work for them and didn't for us? stupid right?!? or why am i friends with some of my friends do i benefit from there friendship. would i do this or that to them had the situation fallen on me, had it been them against the mean girl would i stick up or shut up? idk..??? i love who i have in my life right now the friends, my wonderful family. and my boyfriend. i always said i took a little bit from each of them and made a little bit more of who i am. i wouldn't b who i am today had i not had those in my life. i feel and hope that my friendship to them is good right back. i feel as if im the kind of person that will b there to help/pick them up if in any need of help, but always remind myself to not get stepped on. cause ppl will take advantage of that. so im gonna end this 1st short blog with a question... who do u keep in your life today? does that relationship benefit you? do u get a little out of it? and do u feel u give back to it? its a give and take world. and the same in everything u do! work, shop,friendship,relationships,and even fam. what in u makes thing work in those relationships? and why when u loose a friend/boyfriend/girlfriend/and maybe even fam. member, why? what did u do or couldn't u do for it to work? hmmm.... ~kimmie.